This is what rituals are for. We do spiritual ceremonies as human beings in order to create a safe resting place for our most complicated feelings of joy or trauma, so that we don't have to haul those feelings around with us forever, weighing us down.

I want to have a lasting experience of God.

We're miserable because we think that we are mere individuals, alone with our fears and flaws and resentment and mortality.

True wisdom gives the only possible answer at any given moment, and that night, going back to bed was the only possible answer.

Do you think there's any way humans can love each other without complication?

You need to learn how to select your thoughts just the same way you select your clothes every day. This is a power you can cultivate. If you want to control things in your life so bad, work on the mind. That's the only thing you should be trying to control.

If faith were rational , it wouldn't be -by definition- faith.