And now I see what has been there all along, what I've noticed but never truly understood until now. Eli is as uncertain as I am, as we all are. Life has surprised him like it has me. Has hurt him like it has me.

I never went for the talkers.

I wants us to be real. I want to be just you and me. - Ryan

I felt nothing all the time, and it had started to feel normal. It should have scared me, but it didn't.

She became a story, one I have mostly forgotten. One I can't end because she died a long time ago.

I deserved the shaking and the headaches and the fact that every single time I took a breath I felt a squeezing in my chest, my heart beating even though I wished it wasn't.

She looked at me for real and saw I was serious. She saw I knew she was for me like you know that tomorrow morning the sun will rise.