Three life lessons: 1.No one will see you. 2.No one will say anything. 3.No one will save you.

Just once, I wanted to lose something without the whole world watching.

And yet here I am. Broken and bleeding on the inside, heartsick, I am here.

Then I heard someone laugh. I wished I didn't know whose laugh it was, but I knew Will's laugh just like I knew he had a small scar right above his left elbow. You couldn't be reluctantly lust-ridden for someone without noticing stuff about them.

He's looking at me as if the whole world waits for my next breath, with an intensity that makes my heart pound and my palms sweat and then he smiles, a sweet curve of his mouth, and my breath catches, but then I freeze because there is something about it, something beyond it that I know, that makes my mind go blank with fear and pain.

But the past couple of days I’ve missed you so much it’s felt like missing you is all I am.

Look at me. We aren´t them lauren. You´re not your mother or father any more than I´m my mother. You´re you and I´m me and I love you.