And what if---what are you if the people who are supposed to love you can leave you like you're nothing?

I thought living dead girls couldn't feel pain, thought I was emptied out but I'm not, I'm not.

She became a story, one I have mostly forgotten. One I can't end because she died a long time ago.

And now I see what has been there all along, what I've noticed but never truly understood until now. Eli is as uncertain as I am, as we all are. Life has surprised him like it has me. Has hurt him like it has me.

This is the real unwritten rule: You don't want what you know you shouldn't. And I haven't just broken that rule. I have wrecked it, smashed it, and still... And still I want.

Why do people think being with someone is the answer to everything?

I didn’t want to see it. I didn’t think he’d ever really notice me, and in the end, he didn’t.