I have studiously tried to avoid ever using the word 'madness' to describe my condition. Now and again, the word slips out, but I hate it. 'Madness' is too glamorous a term to convey what happens to most people who are losing their minds. That word is too exciting, too literary, too interesting in its connotations, to convey the boredom, the slowness, the dreariness, the dampness of depression.
Elizabeth WurtzelYou know you've completely descended into madness when the matter of shampoo has ascended to philosophical heights.
Elizabeth WurtzelI start to think there really is no cure for depression, that happiness is an ongoing battle, and I wonder if it isn't one I'll have to fight for as long as I live. I wonder if it's worth it.
Elizabeth WurtzelSometimes I think that I was forced to withdraw into depression because it was the only rightful protest I could throw in the face of a world that said it was alright for people to come and go as they please, that there were simply no real obligations left.
Elizabeth WurtzelI come from a family of screamers. If they are trying to express any emotion or idea beyond pass the salt, it comes in shrieks.
Elizabeth WurtzelBut day after day of depression, the kind that doesnโt seem to merit carting me off to a hospital but allows me to sit here on this stoop in summer camp as if I were normal, day after day wearing down everybody who gets near me. My behavior seems, somehow, not acute enough for them to know what to do with me, though Iโm just enough of a mess to be driving everyone around me crazy.
Elizabeth Wurtzel