Because to tell you the truth, most of the time dying seems pretty much like my only means of escape

Certain of misfire, my heart threatens to stop.

Afraid to Die Loveless Because I think if you die without knowing love in this life, that's how you'll spend eternity. Alone. Frozen.

I get so nervous when im around you i start to studder

But, though I was very much in lust with him, I knew from the start we were nothing like "forever." Maybe because forever is such a scary place.

Six months since we met up again we are inseparable, an intricate weave. No longer do I believe this is a temporary fling. More like total commitment. More like I have walked down the aisle, holding hands with the monster.

It's just so hard to feel good, you know?" I do know. And more than that, it's just so incredibly hard to feel. (54)