I want to open myself, let him inside. But how do I give what has already been taken?

Forgiveness isn’t my best thing. Easier staying pissed. But I’m tired of being pissed all the time. Tired of feeling hurt by stuff that can never be fixed because it is an indelible part of the past.

But more importantly, you are a gift, to all who know you, whether or not they realize it. If they don't, they are blind. You have a special place in this world. All you hvae to do is find it.

It's just so hard to feel good, you know?" I do know. And more than that, it's just so incredibly hard to feel. (54)

I haven't cried since Mom died. I mean, after something like that, what's left to cry about, right? But I let myself cry now. Loss is loss. Doesn't take death to create it. (266)

Everyone's afraid of everybody else...maybe because we're all afraid of ourselves.

Was the fun in the fall?