Love Is a curious thing. Sometimes it barrels into you, leaves you breathless. Other times, it comes in- to your life, a tentative beam of morning sun sneaking through the blinds, and you think this light isn't possible. The shutters are drawn. Night should linger on. I don't feel like waking. Yet the room comes slowly lit. Sleep slithers away, and at last you can no longer deny the dawning.
Ellen Hopkinsempty and closed, hovering in some frozen netherworld neither sun nor rain could thaw.
Ellen HopkinsBut then, my entire life is bullshit. The best things in it have vanished, ghosts. Ghosts I'll admit I created.
Ellen HopkinsGrown up? Me? I suppose I have. Killing things, and almost killing myself, must have changed me some, after all.
Ellen HopkinsWhen You Werenโt Looking The child became a woman, though she wasnโt ready to. Donโt ask how or why. Those questions are not important ones. Canโt you see you didnโt care enough to notice?
Ellen HopkinsGhosts Take shape under moonlight, materialize in dreams. Shadows. Silhouettes of what is no more. But ghosts don't bother me. The day brings bigger things to worry about than flimsy remains of yesterday. No, spooks don't scare me. Gauzy apparitions might prank your psyche or agitate your nightmares, but lacking flesh and blood they are powerless to hurt you-cannot hope to inflict the kind of damage that real, live people do.
Ellen Hopkinscrawling up into daddy's lap when dad was still DADDY nodding my head against his chest soaking in the comfort of his heart LISTENING to the thump...thump somewhere beneath muscle and breastbone I remember his arms their sublime ENCIRCLING and the shawdow of his voice "I love you, little girl. Put away your bad dreams. Daddy's here" I put them away, Until Daddy became my nightmare that one that came HOME from work everyday and instead of picking me up, chased me far far away
Ellen Hopkins