How can I explain purposely setting foot on a path so blatantly treacherous? Was the fun in the fall?

The problem with being grounded is it gives you a whole lot of unavoidable time to think. NOt even pulling weeds can take away your ability to plot all the varied and wonderful things you might do to get even, or at least to make up, just get a smidgen for time lost to TV and yard work and house cleaning.

Forever made that kiss stand out in my mind, touch my heart, make me remember a kiss so tender.

Something stirred beneath my skin, some being inside I'd only suspected existed, demon or angel, I couldn't say.

Alone, there is only the person inside. I've grown to like her better than the stuck-up husk of me. Alone, there is no perfect daughter, no gifted high school junior, no Kristina Georgia Snow. There is only Bree." (Ellen Hopkins)

Even without them touching me, I feel dirty about what I do. Alex does even filthier things but says it all washes off with soap. I don’t believe that. I think it all leaves stains. Indelible stains.

Would I drown saving him?