Because, I figured that, because I was a successful man, I was wealthy, I was, you know, seemingly intelligent - even that I am not intelligent enough to ask for help.

I guess that's why they call it the blues, time on my hands could be time spent with you.

I'm 27 years clean, and when you get clean, you see things in a different way. It makes your life so much more manageable.

Johnny, can't you come out to play in your empty garden?

No tears to damn you when jealousy burns.

And I trusted someone to look after me on the business side of life.

And the stigma hasn't really changed that much in 31 years. You are still getting people - it's a shame-based disease. It's based on sexual transmission. And it's still shame-based. And until people feel strong enough and feel loved enough to actually open up and say, listen, I'm HIV-positive, then we are facing an uphill battle.