Looking back, I question whether I really loved Nate, or just the security of our relationship. I wonder if my feelings for him didnโt have a lot to do with hating my job. From the bar exam through that first hellish year as an associate, Nate was my escape. And sometimes that can feel an awful lot like love.
Emily GiffinHe was uncomplicated and upbeat and easy. At one point, I might have thought these traits made him a simpleton, but now I think they just translate to happiness.
Emily GiffinI donโt know. She was a sweet girl. As sweet as they come. I donโt know why I didnโt love her. Itโs something you canโt really control.
Emily GiffinI think I hoped for something more. Maybe I even hoped that I could find in Richard what I had with Ben. But it is suddenly very clear: Richard is not fallin in love with me and I'm not falling in love with Richard. We are not creating anything permanent or special. We are only having fun together. It is a fling- a fling just like he said last night- a fling with an ending yet to be determined. I feel relieved to have it defined
Emily Giffin