The feeling I have reminds me of New Yearโs Eve, when the countdown is coming and Iโm not quite sure whether to grab my camera or just live in the moment. Usually I grab the camera and later regret it when the picture doesnโt turn out. Then I feel enormously let down and think to myself that the night would have been more fun if it didnโt mean quite so much, if I werenโt forced to analyze where Iโve been and where Iโm going.
Emily GiffinThroughout the ordeal, I learned that getting mad was easier than being sad. Anger was something I could control. I could settle into an easy rhythm of blame and hate. Focus my energy on something than the ache in my heart.
Emily Giffin