Maybe the thing to do after you roll the dice-and lose-is simply pick them up and roll them again.

Things are what they are and there's no point dwelling in the past or wondering what could have been.

We are one of those couples i used to watch, thinking to myself that I'd never be on the inside of something so special. I remember reassuring myself that it probably looked nicer than it actually was, I am happy to be wrong about that.

I'm not trying to convey a message, I'm just trying to tell a story.

Every couple has two stories - the edited one to be shared from the couch and the unabridged version best left alone.

No scratch the word "career". Careers are people who wish to advance. I only want to survive, draw a paycheck. This is merely a job. I can take or leave this place. I start to imagine quitting and following my yet-to-be-determined passion.

I'm going to keep seeing him as much as I can. We'll see what happens," I say, realizing that just "seeing what happens" is my version of "going for it.