It was really bizarre for me to go from being a very private and obscure person and then to be in any way on the internet - like having my picture or videos online.

You can always accuse my records of being harrowing or dark or bleak. There is processing of trauma on my records and they contain a lot of healing. As a person who has been watching other's rage for years, instead of having my own tantrums, I keep the feelings inside until I can find a way of making them into music. The songs are like healing spells and it really works for me. When I really do a good job on a song, it gets rid of a weight. As far as hope goes, there is hope that you can heal through processing stuff and make it through to the other side. That's all I can hope for.

I've been really lucky. People have been nice to me on the internet. That's the reason why I couldn't figure out what was wrong with me.

I've made choices in my life to be somewhat broke to do art and I think it is going to be the same thing with online exposure. You have to be able to make the choices that can make you happy or it will make you crazy.

It was really bizarre for me to go from being a very private and obscure person and then to be in any way on the internet - like having my picture or videos online.

I'd been used to this idea of destructive performance art instead of a slick, good-sounding show. So, I became frustrated as I felt I'd been doing the shows wrong. That sucked.

Back in the day, no one had digital cameras. They took these pictures of me, got them developed, and then mailed them to me.