I was thinking I would miss the rain. I wonder if you can experience the rain in Heaven, if God will let you dip your wings down... But my biggest expectation now is just to live. I will not go gently into that goodnight.

As much as I would have liked to have kept my cancer private, I now realize that I have a certain responsibility to those who are fighting their own fights and may be able to benefit from learning about mine.

Have I been wiretapped? Yes. But who they said wiretapped me was incorrect.

Throughout the journey of my life, I have maintained a strong faith in the power of the human spirit to overcome adversity. I deeply believe in one's own positive will to overcome even the most daunting challenges.

I'm holding onto the hope that there is some reason that I got cancer and there is something - that may not be very clear to me right now - but that I will do.

I feel like a blonde nothingness, alone in my own body ...... Today it's not drugs that fill my body, its despair.

What would you do if someone said to you: "You're so popular right now that you can be on the cover of every magazine, but if you do that, you might get overexposed and a backlash will develop"? That's life. Everything has positive and negative consequences.