I always wanted to be a winner, to score goals. There was no massive bravery in terms of my mum passing away and stepping up. I just wanted to score. I know everyone would have given me a pass on it if I hadn't taken it. But I'd have had the hump with myself if I'd shirked it.

When you look at the caliber of players in the England squad and their ability, why should we go into the tournament fearing anyone?

In terms of not retiring? I don't want to leave and think to myself, "Maybe I should have stayed a bit longer". I'm dwelling on it. I have turned down a few Premier League offers. But the fact is, after being at Chelsea for so long and a year with Manchester City, I don't want to get involved in a relegation dogfight.

I read Michael Caine's biography. It was about him growing up

Obviously, it has taken time to work with the players around me and with so many new faces coming in the summer, in a way it's been more difficult.

If I lose the ball, I lose it trying to do the right thing. That's the way it is.

I don't want to be a passenger sitting on the bench not doing much, even in my older years.