I obviously do everything to be "hard to understand" myself
There is an old illusion. It is called good and evil.
When virtue has slept it will arise more vigorous.
One who has a why can endure anyhow.
Buddha says: "Do not flatter your benefactor!". Let one repeat this saying in a Christian church : it immediately purifies the air of everything Christian.
Childhood and youth are ends in themselves, not stages.