Every decent man of our age must be a coward and a slave. That is his normal condition. Of that I am firmly persuaded. He is made and constructed to that very end. And not only at the present time owing to some casual circumstance, but always, at all times, a decent man is bound to be a coward and a slave.
Fyodor DostoevskyI used to analyze myself down to the last thread, used to compare myself with others, recalled all the smallest glances, smiles and words of those to whom Iโd tried to be frank, interpreted everything in a bad light, laughed viciously at my attempts โto be like the restโ โand suddenly, in the midst of my laughing, Iโd give way to sadness, fall into ludicrous despondency and once again start the whole process all over again โ in short, I went round and round like a squirrel on a wheel.
Fyodor Dostoevsky