Even if you find him. Even if he didn't leave you on purpose, he can't possibly live up to the person you've built him into." It's not like the thought hasn't occurred to me. I get that the chances of finding him are small, but the chances of finding him as I remember him are even smaller. But I just keep going back to what my dad always says, about how when you lose something, you have to visualize the last place you had it. And I foundโand then lostโso many things in Paris.
Gayle FormanSo let's hear another one of your irrational fears. Mia grasped me by the arms and pulled herself in to my chest, like she was burrowing her body into mine. "I'm scared of losing you," she said in the faintest of voices." I pushed her away so I could see her face and kissed the top of her forehead. "I said 'irrational' fears. Because that's not gonna happen.
Gayle FormanIn Rome, I really wanted an Audrey Hepburn Roman Holiday experience, but the Trevi Fountain was crowded, there was a McDonald's at the base of the Spanish Steps, and the ruins smelled like cat pee because of all the strays. The same thing happened in Prague, where I'd been yearning for some of the bohemianism of The Unbearable Lightness of Being. But no, there were no fabulous artists, no guys who looked remotely like a young Daniel Day-Lewis. I saw this one mysterious-looking guy reading Sartre in a cafe, but then his cell phone rang and he started talking in aloud Texan twang.
Gayle FormanDear Willem: Iโve been trying to forget about you and our day in Paris for nine months now, but as you can see, itโs not going all that well. I guess more than anything, I want to know, did you just leave? If you did, itโs okay. I mean itโs not, but if I can know the truth, I can get over it. And if you didnโt leave, I donโt know what to say. Except Iโm sorry that I did. I donโt know what your response will be at getting this letter, like a ghost from your past. But no matter what happened, I hope youโre okay.
Gayle Forman