It wouldโve been easier to die. Itโs not that I want to be dead now. I donโt. I have a lot in my life that I get satisfaction from, that I love. But some days, especially in the beginning, it was so hard. And I couldnโt help but think that it wouldโve been so much simpler to go with the rest of them. But youโyou asked me to stay. You begged me to stay. You stood over me and you made a promise to me, as sacred as any vow.
Gayle FormanSo, this is how it's become? This is how I've become? A walking contradiction? I'm surrounded by people and feel alone. I claim to crave a bit of normalcy but now that I have some, it's like I don't know what to do with it, I don't know how to be a normal person anymore.
Gayle FormanThe audience keeps singing, keeps making my case, and I just keep strumming until I get close enough to see her eyes. And then I start singing the chorus. Right to her. And she smiles at me, and itโs like weโre the only two people out here, the only ones who know whatโs happening. Which is that this song weโre all singing together is being rewritten. Itโs no longer an angry plea shouted to the void. Right here, on this stage, in front of eighty thousand people, itโs becoming something else. This is our new vow.
Gayle Forman