I know that unlike that night, tonight I won't kiss her. Or touch her. Or even see her up close. Tonight, I'll listen. And that'll be enough.

I want to undo this. To make it right. But I have no idea how. I don't seem to know how to open up to people without getting the door slammed in my face. So I do nothing.

I'm also starting to wonder something else. If maybe the point of this crazy quest I'm on wasn't to help me find Willem. Maybe it was to help me find someone else entirely.

I don’t want to be that person, who just takes things.

Really? Was that how you quit me?

I'm not sure this is a world I belong in anymore. I'm not sure that I want to wake up.

I understood all that in my head, but I still didn‟t believe it in my heart.