I’ve since come to understand that the universe operates on the same general equilibrium theory as markets.It never gives you something without making you pay for it somehow.

And then Adam Wilde shows up at Carnegie Hall on the biggest night of my career, and it felt like more than a coincidence. It felt like a gift. From them. For my first recital ever, they gave me a cello. And for this one, they gave me you.

And the voice grows stronger and stronger, and it’s my voice this time and it’s asking a question: How does she know?

You don’t share me. You own me.

I don't know who I am. Or maybe I do know who I am and I just don't want to be her anymore.

If I felt like a fish out of water in my family, I felt like a fish on Mars in Adam’s circle.

Doubt is part of searching. Same as faith.