If you stay, I'll do whatever you want. I'll quit the band, go with you to New York. But if you need me to go away, I'll do that, too. I was talking to Liz and she said maybe coming back to your old life would be too painful, that maybe it'd be easier for you to erase us. And that would suck, but I'd do it. I can lose you like that if I don't lose you today. I'll let you go. If you stay.
Gayle FormanC'est courageux d'aller dans l'inconnu': It is courageous to go into territory unknown.
Gayle FormanSometimes we meet people and are so symbiotic with them, it's as if we are one person, with one mind, one destiny
Gayle FormanThen the musical instruments appeared. Dadโs snare drum from the house, Henryโs guitar from his car, Adamโs spare guitar from my room. Everyone was jamming together, singing songs: Dadโs songs, Adamโs songs, old Clash songs, old Wipers songs. Teddy was dancing around, the blond of his hair reflecting the golden flames. I remember watching it all and getting that tickling in my chest and thinking to myself: This is what happiness feels like.
Gayle FormanAre you coming down with something?" Mom asks. And just for the tiniest of seconds, I wonder what would happen if I told them the truth. That school is nothing like I imagined it would be. That I'm not the girl in the catalog at all. I'm not a Happy College Student. I don't know who I am. Or maybe I do know who I am and I just don't want to be her anymore.
Gayle Forman