School is a foretaste of life.
The Danish glee: the national version of cheerfulness.
I became an ardent, but never a specially good, dancer.
Just about this time, when in imagination I was so great a warrior, I had good use in real life for more strength, as I was no longer taken to school by the nurse, but instead had myself to protect my brother, two years my junior.
Dostoevsky preaches the morality of the pariah, the morality of the slave.
But my doubt would not be overcome. Kierkegaard had declared that it was only to the consciousness of sin that Christianity was not horror or madness. For me it was sometimes both.