I felt that there was nothing wrong with what I was doing because I was supplying a product to people that wanted it and it was accepted. I mean nobody really was making any negative statements about marijuana.

In fact, I was welcomed. There were movie stars and rock stars. I became a pot star. I glorified in that. And of course as time wore on the business began to expand and grow. It went from more or less a college fun thing to a serious business. As the money grew, the power grew.

I was snorting a lot of cocaine and I had lost myself to a great degree. A lot of people, everybody was starting to realize what the coke was all about and they were all starting to get lost.

If somebody had come to me and said will you move heroin, I would have told them no.

Life's a rodeo and all you have to do is stay in the saddle.

All I can say is that my ambition far exceeded my talent.

I hope there's a life after life - and maybe I can even come back again and get on another train, and ride and gain some more wisdom.