I hope there's a life after life - and maybe I can even come back again and get on another train, and ride and gain some more wisdom.

So in the end, was it worth it? Jesus Christ. How irreparably changed my life has become. It's always the last day of summer and I've been left out in the cold with no door to get back in. I'll grant you I've had more than my share of poignant moments. Life passes most people by while they're making grand plans for it. Throughout my lifetime, I've left pieces of my heart here and there. And now, there's almost not enough to stay alive. But I force a smile, knowing that my ambition far exceeded my talent. There are no more white horses or pretty ladies at my door.

If somebody had come to me and said will you move heroin, I would have told them no.

I hope there's a life after life - and maybe I can even come back again and get on another train, and ride and gain some more wisdom.

The official toxicity limit for humans is between one and one and half grams of cocaine depending on body weight. I was averaging five grams a day, maybe more. I snorted ten grams in ten minutes once. I guess I had a high tolerance.

May the wind always be at your back and the sun upon your face, and the winds of destiny carry you aloft to dance with the stars.

After a while, the cocaine - I didn't have any friends. I was just alone and I didn't even like myself.