Iโm not at peace anymore. I just want him like I used to in the old days. I want to be eating sandwiches with him. I want to be drinking with him in a bar. Iโm tired and I donโt want anymore pain. I want Maurice. I want ordinary corrupt human love. Dear God, you know I want to want Your pain, but I donโt want it now. Take it away for a while and give it me another time.
Graham Greene