You do it for the highs, when you're totally engrossed and everything's flowing and whatever you want, you get. It's like magic. That's why you play the game. That's what it's for. That's why you work.

I don't read all the newspapers.

It's about you. If you win, it's you; if you lose, it's you. Black and white. Nowhere to hide.

My biggest problem will be lack of match toughness but I am a positive, optimistic person.

I'm happy in retirement.

You can't really describe how difficult it is to deal with. It is any athlete's worst nightmare to be accused of cheating by taking drugs. It really is very difficult to put into words how it makes you feel.

The downside isn't really injury, fear of injury or the process of fighting back from injury. The downside, the very worst thing in the world, is surgery.