I am determined to live without illusions. I want to look at reality straight. Without hiding.

Being in love means being at the mercy of someone's childhood.

I guess writing is a kind of therapy in the sense that there are things you need to say and you say them, and better out than in.

...I love 'yes.' It's practically the most interesting word of all, don't you think?" Like a hinge opening a door outward. Yes, yes, yes.

All the same, my depression and self-hatred, my desire to mutilate myself with broken bottles, my numbness and crying fits, my inability to get out of bed for days and days, the feeling of the world moving in to crush me, went on and on. But I knew I wouldn't go mad, even if that release, that letting-go, was a freedom I desired. I was waiting for myself to heal.

I've never had any desire to be good. I don't like goodness particularly.

You can't spend your life beating yourself up for something that happened yesterday. You die if you don't follow your desire.