In the end it doesn't matter what you do.
I wrote music as soon as I knew notation.
My attitude to writing is like when you do wallpapering, you remember where all the little bits are that don't meet. And then your friends say: It's terrific!
When I was a kid, I wrote music - from the age of 11 until the age of 18.
Music is such a problem in the time it takes.
I always write the pieces I want to write.