In the end it doesn't matter what you do.
When I was a kid, I wrote music - from the age of 11 until the age of 18.
This sounds horribly pretentious, but I like to think that if music hadn't existed, I could have invented it.
The piece that had a large influence on me was Turangalila.
It's the irrational things that interest me.
One thing I've tried to do in writing music is take on very basic things, very archetypal things.