No problem. You are not crazier than you were yesterday. It has always been this way, and you just never noticed.
Henepola GunaratanaDUE TO OUR FEELINGS ARISING FROM CONTACT, we think and we rationalize, conceptualize, theorize, philosophize and speculate. Because of the feeling arising from the six senses, we increase our desire; we come to wrong views and wrong beliefs. We recall our past sights, smells, sounds, tastes, touches and ideas and build up more desires, thoughts, concepts, beliefs, ideas, theories and philosophies.
Henepola GunaratanaLet come what comes, and accommodate yourself to that, whatever it is. If good mental images arise, that is fine. If bad mental images arise, that is fine, too. Look on all of it as equal, and make yourself comfortable with whatever happens.
Henepola GunaratanaThe you that goes in one side of the meditation experience is not the same you that comes out the other side.
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