Good that you ask. You should always ask, always have doubts.

I wanted only to live in accord with the promptings which came from my true self. Why was that so very difficult?

Once you are able to make your request in such a way that you will be quite certain of its fulfillment, then the fulfillment will come.

Everyone gives what he has. The soldier gives strength, the merchant goods, the teacher instruction, the farmer rice, the fisherman fish.

Thus Gotama [Buddha] walked toward the town to gather alms, and the two samanas recognized him solely by the perfection of his repose, by the calmness of his figure, in which there was no trace of seeking, desiring, imitating, or striving, only light and peace

All life was a breath exhaled by God. All dying was a breath inhaled by God.

People know, or dimly feel, that if thinking is not kept pure and keen, and if respect for the world of mind is no longer operative, ships and automobiles will soon cease to run right, the engineer's slide rule and the computations of banks and stock exchanges will forfeit validity and authority, and chaos will ensue.