I am doubting what to do.
Wisdom is not wisdom when it is derived from books alone.
It is but a poor establishment where there are not many superfluous things which the owner knows not of, and which go to the thieves.
Necessity takes impartially the highest and the lowest.
If it is well with your belly, chest and feet - the wealth of kings can't give you more.
Remember when life's path is steep to keep your mind even.