One of the things I have become aware of through the years is how much I love the people I write about.
Hubert Selby, Jr.It seems to me that what the artist sees is the simple and obvious that is invisible to everybody else.
Hubert Selby, Jr.There was a sky somewhere above the tops of the buildings, with stars and a moon and all the things there are in a sky, but they were content to think of the distant street lights as planets and stars. If the lights prevented you from seeing the heavens, then preform a little magic and change reality to fit the need. The street lights were now planets and stars and moon.
Hubert Selby, Jr.If love is what I've experienced, I can't separate it from other people. I can't separate creation, and I can't separate whatever this creative thing is, from it's creation. I don't believe that can be done. We're all part of this creative force.
Hubert Selby, Jr.No matter how beautiful the outside may be, the inside still has feelings and needs that just words don't fulfill.
Hubert Selby, Jr.I just don't seem to be capable of believing in evil as some separate, distinct power within itself. I guess I'm just not a Southern Baptist or a Fundamentalist. I just don't seem to be capable of believing in it myself, somehow. I don't . . . I can't conceive from my experience how this force of evil can exist without the force of love being right there.
Hubert Selby, Jr.I have rituals for cleaning out resentments, disappointments, heartbreak, depression and for work. One of the things I do is go over old stuff if I have been unable to write for a while.
Hubert Selby, Jr.I guess it could be said that the inspiration for 'Requiem for a Dream' is watching the American dream not only destroy so many lives in the U.S., but infect the rest of the world with its obsession with getting more, ignoring the deadly effect that has on the planet.
Hubert Selby, Jr.Sometimes we have the absolute certainty there's something inside us that's so hideous and monstrous that if we ever search it out we won't be able to stand looking at it. But it's when we're willing to come face to face with that demon that we face the angel.
Hubert Selby, Jr.An extraordinary writer....It is the vastness of Nick Tosches’ heart that makes it possible to reveal the darkness.
Hubert Selby, Jr.I've always felt alienated. I realized that I've been terrified my entire life. So I can identify that fear which drives so many of the people that I write about.
Hubert Selby, Jr.I think Mozart, like you, is an example of someone who has the gods moving through him, and his religion was creation.
Hubert Selby, Jr.There are a lot of people in this country who really like my writing. And a lot of writers respect me. But the so-called establishment? They hate me.
Hubert Selby, Jr.The voice so filled with nostalgia that you could almost see the memories floating through the blue smoke, memories not only of music and joy and youth, but perhaps, of dreams. They listened to the music, each hearing it in his own way, feeling relaxed and a part of the music, a part of each other, and almost a part of the world.
Hubert Selby, Jr.Eventually we all have to accept full and total responsibility for our actions, everything we have done, and have not done.
Hubert Selby, Jr.... I started to die 36 hours before I was born, so dying was a way of life for me.
Hubert Selby, Jr.Writing, like any art, is a continuing process of discovering the infinite possibilities of Life.
Hubert Selby, Jr.I think the function of suffering is to let me know that my perception is skewed; what I’m doing is judging natural events in such a way that I am creating suffering within myself. For instance, you have pain over certain conditions, certain situations that occur. And if you just say ‘ok, here I am, I’m going to experience the pain,’ you don’t suffer. The resistance and the degree of the resistance to the natural phenomenon of life causes tremendous suffering.
Hubert Selby, Jr.I certainly do attempt to live according to spiritual principles. That's always the foundation of each and every day. I have experienced some things in my life that just force me to believe in some sort of power. A creative . . . creative power source; however you want to phrase it. I certainly have experienced that presence. And I have experienced what I consider the basic, what we would call love and concern.
Hubert Selby, Jr.There's a sorrow and pain in everyone's life, but every now and then there's a ray of light that melts the loneliness in your heart and brings comfort like hot soup and a soft bed.
Hubert Selby, Jr.I'm focusing on writing the best story I can write. Which means I'm doing everything I can to give the artist within me as much power as possible.
Hubert Selby, Jr.When I stop doing the things that make me unhappy, I will experience the happiness that is that natural state of being. See, I don't think we were created with some pain and misery and whatever. I think we were created by whatever this thing is, when it extended itself, and, here we are. But I pile on so many misconceptions that I end up uncomfortable in my own skin.
Hubert Selby, Jr.Being an artist doesn’t take much, just everything you got. Which means, of course, that as the process is giving you life, it is also bringing you closer to death. But it’s no big deal. They are one in the same and cannot be avoided or denied. So when I totally embrace this process, this life/death, and abandon myself to it, I transcend all this meaningless gibberish and hang out with the gods. It seems to me that that is worth the price of admission.
Hubert Selby, Jr.Angels is a tough word, because it is so involved with organized religion and everything else. I do know, absolutely, from my experience, there are some kind of spiritual entities - force, power, intelligence - that guide me through each and every day, as long as I'm willing to accept, recognize, and surrender to their guidance. It's always there, but there are times when I insist upon having my way.
Hubert Selby, Jr.I do believe this: That what we call love is always available to us. And of course I'm not just talking about passion. I'm talking about love where you just can't conceive that your life isn't perfect, that you can't conceive of wanting anything.
Hubert Selby, Jr.I suspect there will never be a requiem for a dream, simply because it will destroy us before we have the opportunity to mourn it's passing.
Hubert Selby, Jr.However they may have felt when they left they were now committed, they had passed the point of no return.
Hubert Selby, Jr.I think in a way the great irony or paradox about America is that it makes it so hard for the sensitive person, the artist, the impressionable person, the person whose raison d'etre is to incarnate the creative will, rather than to just make money, and yet that extreme difficulty that the culture poses for us has created some of the best artists in the last hundred years.
Hubert Selby, Jr.Sometimes it seems to stand still. Like you’re in a bag and you can’t get out and somebody’s always telling you that it will get better with time and time just seems to stand still and laugh at you and your pain.
Hubert Selby, Jr.I don't know that I could really define love. I can't . . . again, it's like trying to define what this creative force is. It's beyond my ability to really define. If I can define it, then it's not it. We're right back to that thing again.
Hubert Selby, Jr.For weeks Tyrone thought he was going to die any minute, and there were also times when he was afraid he wasnt going to die.
Hubert Selby, Jr....and the night was comfortably warm as the soft filtered light continued to push the darkness into the shadows as they held each other and kissed and pushed each others darkness into the corner, believing in each others light, each others dream.
Hubert Selby, Jr.I was sitting at home and had a profound experience. I experienced, in all of my Being, that someday I was going to die, and it wouldn't be like it had been happening, almost dying but somehow staying alive, but I would just die! And two things would happen right before I died: I would regret my entire life; I would want to live it over again. This terrified me. The thought that I would live my entire life, look at it and realize I blew it forced me to do something with my life.
Hubert Selby, Jr....and he just sat back and stared at the tube, almost interested in what was happening, trying to find the ability to believe in that lie so he could believe the one within.
Hubert Selby, Jr.