The learned person who only talks will never Penetrate to the inner heart of humans.
Many things which are called 'secrets' are only things withheld from people until they can understand or effectively experience them.
You are adrift while you still think that a means is an end.
Please, not again what you studied, how long you spent at it, how many books you wrote, what people thought of you - but: what did you learn?
Have you noticed how many people who walk in the shade curse the Sun?
The Way of the Sufis cannot be understood by means of the intellect or by ordinary book learning.