I hate solitude but I am afraid of intimacy. The substance of my life is a private conversation with myself and to turn it into a dialogue would be equivalent to self-destruction. The company I need is the company which a pub or a cafe will provide. I have never wanted a communion of souls.
Iris MurdochThere is no beyond, there is only here, the infinitely small, infinitely great and utterly demanding present.
Iris Murdoch