But nothing will ever change if we keep pretend. People 'live out loud', as you say, not merely for themselves but for a more honest future.
J-AxThe only advice I can give youโฆ is to examine who you areโฆ Figure out whatโs important to you. Know yourselves. Know whatโs in your heart. Donโt be swayed by fear or history or the opinions of outsiders. Find your own truth. It will lead you to the things you love.
J-AxIt's hard not to hate. People, things, institutions. When they break your spirit and take pleasure in watching you bleed, hate is the only feeling that makes sense. That's what I need to tell you. To let you know how hard I'm trying not to cave under the weight of all the awful things I feel in my heart. When I look at my day, I realize most of it was spent cleaning up the damage of the day before. In that life I have no future. All I have is distraction and remorse.
J-AxThereโs an old saying: that which doesnโt kill you makes you stronger. I donโt believe that. I think the things that try to kill you make you angry and sad. Strength comes from the good things โ your family, your friends, the satisfaction of hard work. Those are the things that keep you whole. Those are the things to hold on to when youโre broken.
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