Nothing ever happened - Not even this

Contrary to the general belief about photography, you don't need bright sunlight: the best moodiest pictures are taken in the dim light of almost dusk, or of rainy days.

I looked up at the dark sky and prayed to God for a better break in life and a better chance to do something for the little people I loved.

Things are so hard to figure out when you live from day to day in this feverish and silly world.

And I realize the unbearable anguish of insanity: how uninformed people can be thinking insane people are "happy," O God, in fact it was Irwin Garden once warned me not to think the madhouses are full of "happy nuts." (p. 200)

It was all completely serious, all completely hallucinated, all completely happy.

I didn't know what to say. I felt like crying, Goddammit everybody in the world wants an explanation for your acts and for your very being.