An awful realization that I have been fooling myself all my life thinking there was a next thing to do to keep the show going and actually I'm just a sick clown and so is everybody else

Down in Denver, all I did was die.

The truth of the matter is, you die, all you do is die, and yet you live, yes you live, and that's no Harvard lie.

Mankind will someday realize that we are actually in contact with the dead and with the other world, whatever it is; right now we could predict, if we only exerted enough mental will, what is going to happen within the next hundred years and be able to take steps to avoid all kinds of catastrophes. When a man dies he undergoes a mutation in his brain that we know nothing about now but which will be very clear someday if scientists get on the ball. The bastards right now are only interested in seeing if they can blow up the world.

Things are so hard to figure out when you live from day to day in this feverish and silly world.

I promise I shall never give up, and that I'll die yelling & laughing.

You'd be surprised how little I knew even up to yesterday