For the sort of potential that a human being carries, it is a very brief life.
If you shift from compulsiveness to consciousness, being joyful will not be an effort.
When you exist here only as a body and a mind, suffering is inevitable.
Spirituality is not a disability - it is a phenomenal empowerment of life.
Pleasure is just a shadow of joy. When there is no joy in you, you become a pleasure seeker.
The fear is simply because you are not living with life, You are living in your mind.