And I was ashamed of myself for feeling like I had to do that in order to look a certain way. I felt misshapen, just not natural anymore. And I think it was a big stimulator of my drug use.

There is a point when you aren't as much mom and daughter as you are adults and friends.

Now all of a sudden I'm so less interested in pretending to be a lot of other people, and much more interested in being me.

I'm a performer. I've just been one since I was a little girl. I used to pretend all the time.

Actually, the books were never a planned career path.

Getting sober just exploded my life. Now I have a much clearer sense of myself and what I can and can't do. I am more successful than I have ever been. I feel very positive where I never did before, and I think that's all a direct result of getting sober.

I thought, while they're up and firm, why not shoot them once or twice.