This time, for the first time, I saw the possibilities in giving up. I even found hope in it.
Jay AsherI could picture lifeโschool and everything elseโcontinuing on without me. But I could not picture my funeral. Not at all. Mostly because I couldnโt imagine who would attend or what they would say.
Jay AsherNormally when a person has a stellar image another person's waiting in the wings to tear them apart. They're waiting for that one fatal flaw to expose itself.
Jay AsherBecause when you're posed, you know someone's watching. You put on your very best smile. You let your sweetest personality shine.
Jay AsherBut I need to wake up somehow. Or maybe not. Maybe itโs best to get through the day half-asleep. Maybe thatโs the only way to get through today.
Jay AsherAnd like I said, I didn't know him very well, but my ears perked up whenever I heard his name. I guess I wanted to hear something - anything - juicy. Not because I wanted to spread gossip. I just couldn't believe someone could be that good. If he was actually that good... wonderful. Great! But it became a personal game of mine. How long could I go on hearing nothing but good things about Clay Jensen? Normally, when a person has a stellar image, another person's waiting in the wings to tear them apart. They're waiting for that one fatal flaw to expose itself. But not with Clay.
Jay Asher