Because what if I got to know you and you turned out to be just like they said? What if you werenโt the person I hoped you were? That, more than anything, would have hurt the most.
Jay AsherI didn't feel physically sick. But mentally. My mind was twisting in so many ways. (...) We once saw a documentary on migraines. One of the men interviewed used to fall on his knees and bang his head against the floor, over and over during attacks. This diverted the pain from deep inside his brain, where he couldn't reach it, to a pain outside that he had control over.
Jay Asher