It's up to the reader to decipher the code, or the words, based on everything they know about life and emotions.
Jay AsherI didn't feel physically sick. But mentally. My mind was twisting in so many ways. (...) We once saw a documentary on migraines. One of the men interviewed used to fall on his knees and bang his head against the floor, over and over during attacks. This diverted the pain from deep inside his brain, where he couldn't reach it, to a pain outside that he had control over.
Jay AsherWhenever I'm out late she makes a sandwich for my school lunch. I always protest and tell her not to, saying I'll make my own when I get home. But she likes it. She says it reminds her of when I was younger and needed her.
Jay AsherJosh turns to me. โI canโt believe sheโs writing these things.โ โNot she,โ I say. โMe.โ โWhy would anyone say this stuff about themselves on the Internet? Itโs crazy!โ โExactly,โ I say. โIโm going to be mentally ill in fifteen years, and thatโs why my husband doesnโt want to be around me.
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