Maybe it didn’t seem like a big deal to you Zach. But now, I hope you understand. My world was collapsing. I needed those notes. I needed any hope those notes might have offered. And you? You took that hope away. You decided I didn’t deserve to have it.

I’m going to be mentally ill in fifteen years, and that’s why my husband doesn’t want to be around me.

How many times had I let myself connect with someone only to have it thrown back in my face?

And concentrating on the spot where the two spindles should be is the closest I get to looking Hannah's eyes as she tells my story.

His door is closed behind me. It's staying closed. He's letting me go. I think I've made myself very clear, but no ones stepping forward to stop me. A lot of you cared, just not enough. And that...that is what i needed to find out. And I did find out. And I'm sorry.

Because when you're posed, you know someone's watching. You put on your very best smile. You let your sweetest personality shine.

Maybe if I forgot things once in a while, we'd all be a little bit happier.