I decided to find out how people at school might react if one of the students never came back.

I was too weak to walk. At least, I thought I was too weak. But in truth, I was too weak to try.

If I had a chance with him, I missed it. No, I didn't miss it. I threw it away.

Sometimes we have thoughts that even we don't understand. Thoughts that aren't even true—that aren't really how we feel—but they're running through our heads anyway because they're interesting to think about.

You don't know what goes on in anyone's life but your own.

Yes, it feels great to plan your life when you believe everything can turn out fine. But what about when you're shown, again and again, how little control you have over anything? No matter what I do to try to fix my future, it doesn't work.

How in the world was I alone? Because I wanted to be. That's all I can say. It's all that makes sense to me.