I don't know how one would define an affirmative-action hire. I ultimately do not know what role race played in my hiring.

Once I had a better beat, I needed to have an even better one. And somewhere in that climbing, I lost sight of, sort of, my moral and ethical underpinnings.

I am making amends and seeking forgiveness. My only hope is that some good can come out of my situation.

Some people it seems to me would like for me to crawl in a hole and disappear forever. That's just not in my nature.

It's hard to say what role race really played in my case.

I don't know how one would define an affirmative-action hire. I ultimately do not know what role race played in my hiring.

I believe my own demons would have caught up with me regardless of my race and regardless of whether I worked at 'The Times.