I believe my own demons would have caught up with me regardless of my race and regardless of whether I worked at 'The Times.

I fooled some of the most brilliant people in journalism.

Racism built me into a person that was set up to be self-destructive.

You know I am done lying. Obscuring the truth is no longer something I have any interest in doing. I want it all to come out. The good, the bad, the ugly.

When we report stories, we don't just want to talk to people who did the right thing. We want to talk to people who did the wrong thing.

It's hard to say what role race really played in my case.

I can't say anything other than the fact that I feel a range of emotions including guilt, shame, sadness, betrayal, freedom and appreciation for those who have stood by me, been tough on me, and have taken the time to understand that there is a deeper story and not to believe everything they read in the newspapers.