One is still what one is going to cease to be and already what one is going to become. One lives one's death, one dies one's life.
Jean-Paul SartreThe absurd man will not commit suicide; he wants to live, without relinquishing any of his certainty, without a future, without hope, without illusions โฆ and without resignation either. He stares at death with passionate attention and this fascination liberates him. He experiences the โdivine irresponsibilityโ of the condemned man.
Jean-Paul Sartre